Saturday, March 19, 2011


i am in almost exactly the same place that i was in four years ago- in 2007, i wrote this:
being pure in heart is the single most important thing to me. people seem so fixated on what the rest of the world thinks of them, of their actions, their motives, the things they do that are seen. i think that integrity, and the purity that goes alongside it are much more valuable than public opinion. i love the way Mother Theresa says that if God calls her to clean toilets, that she will do it with as much passion and honor as if He had called her to witness to the president, or when Martin Luther King says that if you're called to be a streetsweeper, to be the best streetsweeper you can be. i dont care what anyone else thinks about my vocation, my marriage, or my ministry, as long as God sees where my heart is, the rest is just the opinion of men. every relationship i have, every "act of service" i do has nothing to do with the other people involved, it has to do with my relationship with my Creator at the time that i do them. when it comes down to it, at the end of my life i am not going to face my friends, or the people i work for, or even my husband...everything that i have ever done is going to be stripped down to the condition of my heart when i did it. i want to do everything to Him, for Him, and with Him.

1 comment:

Aubrey said...

I am so glad you wrote this. I finally have my dream job and I thought everyone would be excited for me. I keep hearing, why did you leave all that money? And all I can say is that my heart choose to do what it wants and that is serve. Serve my community and thus serve him. I might not attend church regularly, I might not be the best christian, but my faith and devotion to serve because all he has blessed me with is what keeps me going. Especially now, when times are tough.