my funny valentine

to my valentine birthday,

my beanie baba babushkie,

my darlingest of all darlings and silliest of all sillies,

before i met you i was a little confused

(okay, alot confused)

about marriage and the way marriage looks in real life-

i had disney dreams and i read alot of books

ALOT of books

and love looked like passionate longing and intense amounts of insecurity

 and white horses

 and girls with long names

and in all the stories they lived happily ever after the day they said

"i do"

and i always wondered if marriage was the end, the finale, the way to say that they made it.

the pictures they painted were perfectly balanced and wonderfully tragic and

i expected you to ride in on a chariot of gold and climb up my hair

and i didnt realize that happily ever after was only the beginning.

everyone else has taught me to be frantic and urgent

and to live live live live until you cant take it anymore, and i try to wrap you up in that,

but you,

in all of your flawed brilliance and masculine beauty,

you taught me how to really live happily ever after

because

you make me so calm when the world screams crazy,

and you showed me how to like pepper

and you fixed the tailpipe on my car

you tell me the most boring bedtime stories ever

and you criticize the way i mop

you look at me like you know me

like you know what happens to me on the inside

you hate it when i get my way,

but you (almost) always let me

you are so good at cooking meat so that its not too chewy or lemony or spicy

just right

and you clean the chocolate syrup off my chin at baskin robbins

and you never let your finger nails get too long, but you always have to be reminded about your toes

and you  forget to set your alarm clock almost every day

but never forget to excitedly scream my name when i walk in the front door

you push me and push me and push me until i lose my patience and i cant take it anymore

but you open your arms and i envelop me in kisses and

you always always always say you are sorry first

and i know that im a mess and im unpredictable and all over the place

but you are my rock, and my anchor and my home

 my happily ever after.